Where are you Christmas?

I've been feeling particularly low lately.  

I think the weight of the world is on my shoulders again.

I may be a little overly sensitive.  

I started a post earlier today that was all about my plans for
the party I am throwing for myself today.  

I thought I would call it a "poor pitiful me party."  

After working on the post for awhile I finally decided to delete it.

I'm not typically a Debbie Downer...

I just feel overwhelmingly sad.  

As the holidays are nearing, I am reminded
of my dwindling family. 

I miss my mom and my big brother. 

I decided to turn on some music.  

My ipod always seems to make me happy and
today was no different.  

Except, instead of my top 100 playlist,
I turned on my Christmas playlist.

There is nothing like Christmas music to make me
feel happy inside. 

I wish we could have Christmas all year.

I know that my savior loves me. 

He carries me in times of sorrow.  

I am thankful for his love surrounding me.  

I am grateful for my forever family.  

I love the lyrics to the song Where are you Christmas

by Faith Hill 

Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love